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Here i am, once again with another update, i already made one for today,
and you can probably tell by now that its verrry late bcuz i don't usually make two entries in one night.. so you can assume either option A. becca has something on her mind she needs to let out; option B. becca is depressed again; or option C. becca is depressed because she has something on her mind she needs to let out.. which i guess would be both answers A & B.. but nevertheless if you assume either of those three, then more than likely you're absolutely right.:-)
this entry is actually about something.. like taking chances for instance
i don't know why but it hit me last night, and it hit hard.. it doesn't have anything to do with a certain ANYBODY but its more of a hypethetical observation...
TAKE A CHANCE ---I'm sure you've heard this phrase before.. to me 'take a chance' and 'what if's' are kinda the same thing.. only sometimes one overrides the other.... alot of people have gone through the 'what if's'...((so that i don't confuse anybody im basing this on 'relationship or liking' someone type of thing)) like for instance when you tell somebody you like them and in the past they've let on or told you personally that they were attractedt to you and its nothing more than that.. but later you feel alot more.. and you tell them, thennn on certain people's part im SURE they've thought 'well, what IF this had happened' or 'what if i had given this person a chance'.. basically what im trying to say is don't get somewhere down the road with the 'what if's' still roaming around in your mind.. the only way to get rid of those is to TAKE A CHANCE..even though it might be something totally different from what you're use to or whatever the situation might be.. but don't move on from something unless you absolutely sure that you have no more 'what if's'... I don't mean like three years later you think 'well what if i just given that person a kiss'... im talking about THE WHOLE THING.. like what if i had just given that person a chance, just to see what would've happened.. i might not be making any sense right now, but i know what i mean and what im trying to say and if anybody has anything they would like to add or say then its totally awesome with me, i'd be glad to hear what somebody else had to say on the matter.. or better yet, explain to me what i just said but in their own way
I'm glad the ones who had an awesome valentines are happy, and the ones who didn't have an awesome valentine's then maybe it just wasn't your year.. maybe next year, they don't know what they're missing:-)it didn't hit me until now how upset i really am that i don't have ANYBODY to share anything with, and its kinda sad.. reaaally sad in fact:-/ i try to be one thing, and then if that doesn't work, i try to be something else until i have just about run out of masks..what makes it even worse, is doing that trying to MAKE somebody love you back:-/ when in reality if they don't feel anything, then what can you do about it? you can't make somebody love you. when you get to the point that ALL you're ever wanted for is friends.. why even try anymore? i mean just fuckin let it go... be like usher and let it burn. i just don't understand why it has to be so hard. Why im denied the action of being loved back, and of course its by somebody i'll never have.. bcuz you always want what you can't have. i guess i just have feelings that im not suppose to have, feelings that should've been gone.. or maybe feelings that never should've been there:-/ i just give up, i really don't know what else there is for me to do.. and there's no point in talking to the person about it becuz they've already said what they had to say about the matter.. and that was that.. why is this shit so hard? and why does it BURN your heart so bad?:-/ like the only person you love KNOWS how you feel, but doesn't care? well maybe they care.. they just... nvm, i don't know! whatever...typing through tears doesn't help, and i can't see shit!
i'm going to bed
gnite:-/
......to you, all i am is the INVISIBLE MAN:-/
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YAY for being wierd and all the wierdness in the world!
i went to wal mart today, and i had on some black khaki pants with the belt i usually have, a belt chain, a black shirt... my bracelets, my black wrist band and my hair is ALOT DARKER now... soo like i said i was in wal mart with all that stuff on.. ohh yeah! and my NEW BLACK SHOES *VANS;-)* im looking around and all of a sudden i see this OLD guy watching me, and it was fine to start with bcuz my first reaction is they think they know me.. so its all good, it didn't get creepy until i noticed him EVERYWHERE i was... and he finally approached me and says 'does your mother know you dress like that?' and at first i didn't know how to respond.. so i tilted my head to the side and said 'yess? she's the one who bought the shoes??' and he started shaking his head and walked off and started mumbling something, but all i heard is 'these WEIRD kids today.. blah blah something' haha i laughed all the way to the car, it was awesome, in my whole years of being wierd has that EVER happened to me... I'VE MADE A BREAK THROUGH! WHEEEW GO ME!!
yeah, and i know im home early.. today being valentine's and all and i have to honestly say, that im OKAY not having a date or anything.. i really am.. its okay that im not with anybody, or that my world has to revolve around TRYING to be with somebody, bcuz its not...:-)
but anyways.. i didn't go out or anything.. well i went out but it wasn't like a date or anything.. i SURPRISED daye and ary with a date thing... they both went out... NOT TOGETHER, but went out seperately so im guessing they were looking for each other some gifts and what not.. but daye's mom let me in and her mom is such a fuckin pimp! haha but she had a date too so she was telling where all the food was and blah blah blah.. so daye's mom left.. and i set up the table in the living room up for daye and ary's 'surprise' date ... which neither of 'em knew i was doing;-)... so when they both showed up the look on their faces was awesome! go me!!... so anyways i played 'WAITRESS' and it was quite interesting.. i had on the lil outfit and everything,.. it was alot of fun.. but then umm.. some things got a lil hot n heavy so i decided to leave and let them have at it:-D ;-) i sooo rock!! hah
so now im at home and i have nothing but some lil hershey kisses and a movie that i rented and i'll be staying in, by myself.. ALONE, tonite:-) SOMETIMES i think it would be nice to have somebody.. but then other times im glad im not for the fact that i get scared too easily:-/ but sometimes you can't help what you feel.. and sometimes you still have feelings that you shouldn't.. but we'll just leave it at that and walk away.................*walks away slowly*
im gonna go finish my movie and prolly go to bed
im tired
gnite:-)
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today SUCKED.. im .. YAY FOR ALL THE TOMORROWS THAT COME
FRIDAY- i was insanely sick, i blew the bathroom up.. like in that movie 'daddy daycare' where the little kid told eddie murphy that 'HE MISSED' and eddie murphy is like 'what do you mean, you missed?! and the little boy has this 'duh' look on his face and says 'I MISSED!" and eddie murphy walks in the bathroom and sees what he means by HE MISSED.. and then he looks up and gets this herendous look on his face! hah yeah, thats what MY bathroom looked like when i got done throwing up.. so i called THE boss and told her i couldn't come in bcuz i was throwing up and she was like 'thats fine, i have to close then but get better' i felt soo bad for doing that, but i was too sick to work, and i NEVER miss work.. but other than that, i didn't do anything
SATURDAY- i got up at 11 and went to daye's to chill, she knew i was sick but still wanted me there.. what a fag! (( in every aspect of the word)) haha...
anyway.. we chilled and watched movies... nothing special then around 6 i came home and went running.. yeah even when im sick, i missed the soccer game thursday bcuz of this evil sickness... and i think the running helped..then after running i came home to rest, then my mom took me out to eat.. i got home around 10 and daye and aryonna came over to watch more freakin movies...thenn they went home and i got sicker and fell asleep, or tried too
SUNDAY- today was sooo effin slow! i got up around 2! i was still sick...my mom left me a note and some money to go get some food bcuz she has yet to go shopping!.. but i wasn't hungry, then my sister came home and checked her email. and i sat in the living room and ate some chef boyardee dinosaurs and watched the evanescence 'anywhere but home' dvd...then she left and my mom came home and left with a quickness... soo i threw some clothes on and decided to go running.. and i did for about 1hr and a half.. it felt good.. then i layed on top of my car and watched the stars for about 15mins.. then an MP pulled up beside me and asked if i was okay.. i told him i was fine just looking at the stars and he smiled and said 'have a nice night' then left.. haha.. wierdos!.. then i decided that since i was on ft. rucker, i might as well go see a friend.. so i went to tiffany's to chill or see if she was home. and she was.. so we chilled and watched a movie.. some of the lamest movies, i tell ya, but nothing else was on... but me and tiff talked and chilled and we laughed ALOT! i mean more than usual, it was awesome.. then nip/tuck came on.. and we were all comfortable on the bed and what not.. and then it got exciting bcuz we kept jumping up.. then laying back down, then something exciting would happen and we would jump up again.. followed by alot of 'omg' and 'haha wow!'.. and some 'gasps'.. hah it was great! thennn i went to subway to get some cookies! and jay was there, so i sat and ate with him.. and we talked about some things.. then i came home.. and im soo tired.. but like i said 'yay for tomorrows' :-)
gnite/goodmorning
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I guess it's time for a real update
these things can be addictive at some point, then at another its like you forget about it altogether
anyways.. im leaving next weekend.. im excited, even though im not showing it, im showing it on the inside, i really am excited.. hah
last wednesday daye had her bday party, and she got my surprise that somebody told her about.. not what i was getting her but just that it was A BIG SURPRISE.. and she wouldn't leave me alone for 2wks about it.. but its all good.. she got it on her birthday when IT walked through the front door.. i have to say the smile on her face was enough to last about a year...hah.. it made me excited.. but it was awesome, im glad she's happy:-)
I'm still sick, and it won't go away.. like tuesday everybody thought they were gonna have to take me to the hospital bcuz 'i lost the color in my face' and i guess i wasn't feeling good but it didn't really hit me until friday morning around 8.. when i EXPLODED in the bathroom,.. i threw up everywhere.. it was horrible.. i did that like three times that day.. but im a little better now, i guess.. i know i feel 100% better than i did friday.. good god!!
I notice that when you're extremely sick, you have the strangest dreams and i have had some of the wierdest freakin dreams.. i mean it would be like 'real life' dreams not like this fantasy mess where im wonder woman or something.. but it would be real, like REAL people i know.. and .. it was just weird, im not gonna go into detail bcuz A.) nobody is ready to hear it and B.) it doesn't mean anything anyways:-/
but yeah, i think its funny how sickness can make you dream and see some crazy -ish
i don't know why, but since we're on the subject of 'not feeling well' I don't know how everybody else feels but i know that when im sick, i reaaaally don't want to be bothered with.. like how some 'couples' want their bf/gf to come take care of them or cuddle with them or something... i can't stand it, i just want to be left alone and get better by myself.. i find that kinda ironic considering how im usually by myself most of the time anyways?? hmmm
anyways...i really need to get over it.. i hate being sick
maaan, i know im about to admit to something, but don't hold it against me bcuz i'll deny it..seriously, but you know how you see couples.. not just ANY couple but the ones who look like they are REALLY into each other or who LOOK like they're in love?? i kinda..i don't know.. sometimes wish i could be in their shoes for like 3 seconds to know and see what it feels like.. maybe im just really wierd but thats how i feel, then again you're talking to a person who can't fall for the right person and when i do im told that 'i don't think you're in love with me' thats happened ONCE.. and i think that ONE TIME was enough!! but i've had people say 'well, ur cool but i just want to be friends' thats happened twice, and its not so bad.. but the first one.. GOOD GOD! anyways, im gonna get into that story...*shutters*
i guess thats all
im just venting right now so i guess thats my cue to bizounce or something
>>>D&A, i think you two are soo freakin cute together! don't let anybody tell you anything different<<< :-D
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Your Gothic... Maybe even a bit Vampyric... Your
very sensitive, sometimes you can be outgoing
in your own population. Your sometimes Lonely,
but when your alone your much happier. If your
suicidal, it's okay, because your the kewlest
person I know!....well don't actually know you
but yeah! Write me and Tell Me if you picked
Napoleon or Ron!
Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!?
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Her needs controlling her mind
Her heart is beating fast
Among their anxious eyes
This easy prey's heart is bleeding
Wishing it's just a dream
In this silent moment
The serpent's desires allayed
They look deep inside as cold as ice
The ink-stained memories
forever stay
They look deep inside as cold as ice
Her needs controlling her mind
Her heart is beating fast
Among their anxious eyes
And they look deep inside as cold
as your eyes
And they look deep inside as cold as ice
One night's crying can't make up
for years of denial
But all things will come to an end
Torment and damnation will not last forever
After darkness there will always be light
The angels will expel the demons
out of your mind, life, mind
The angels will expel the demons
out of your mind
I completely understand:-)
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i had a pretty good time tonite, i didn't go out with friends or anything but i did go out with my sister, my OLDER sister...we went to the mall or to dothan to look around and find my mom a bday gift, she'll be a whole 52 tomorrow... geez mom, ur gettin old:-/;-) haha
so anyways, i guess i reaaaally needed to go on that 'trip' because.. on the way home, me and my sister got into one of those serious discussions, and i did all i could do to keep from crying.. i hate when people see me cry
but we talked about things in our past, and how you can have peace with yourself if you forgive people for what they've done to you... and the very sensitive subject was my father... i hate him, like you just don't understand, its more than just a passion of hate.... but my sister and i talked about how badly he treated her even when he wasn't hers...he abused her and everything and how her real dad just left her and my mom when they were 5, but they talked it over and she's fine or 'at peace'.. and its just soo hard for me to forgive him, he controlled our lives, he beat us.. everything we did we were 'worthless' and 'shouldn't even be on this earth'... it got to the point that if i thought he was gonna hit my younger sister, i would blame ME for whatever he was bitching about.. he was such an ass, i can't believe my mom stayed around that fuckin long.. but nevertheless, my sister was saying how you don't have to ask to be forgiven, you should just do it, and if you think that you have to talk to the person when you see them, or have lunch with them, or hug them.. then you don't have to, its just the point of forgiving them to just be happy and at peace with yourself
but my question is more 'can you REALLY forgive if you CAN'T forget?' you may say 'well, i forgive this person' but later on, when u THINK about them and the pain they've caused you .. or not just you but everyone around you.. its soo fuckin hard to forget, bcuz the memories will ALWAYS be there.. and i admit i do have a few GOOD memories.. but only a FEW
maybe now everyone can see why im so screwed... im the type to hold everything in, and i will, i hardly talk at all and everybody thinks there is something always wrong with me, and most likely its not.. but what do you say to somebody when all you have is anger and hurt and regret inside of you>? how do you just call somebody and say 'i need to talk to you'.. i know it may come easy to certain people, but its just too hard to me...i've tried, and i end up pushing people away, or they end up leaving me bcuz im pushing them away..and its not my fault that i've put a wall around my heart and soul and everything else.. well, maybe it is my fault but its hard not too when you've known and understood one thing
im not asking for anyone to understand me, bcuz no matter how hard you try.. ur not gonna get there
i remember last year, well about about 5 months ago, i told somebody i was in love with them and they told me that they didn't think i was.. well of course it hurt.. and it hurt bad.. and it stuck there and burned so hard for a long time... and i cried everynight.. then later i guess i got over it bcuz maybe they were right, maybe i wasn't.. who knows? and i also remember saying to myself that if this certain person ever said it to someone they really loved, what would they have done if the person they loved soo much told them the exact same thing they told me??:-/
later on i let it go and just forgot EVERYTHING i have ever felt bcuz no matter how hard you try, u CAN NOT make somebody feel for you what you want them too...even if you try to be somebody you're not, it just isn't going to happen, its either there or its not...some people would rather just be friends and sometimes all friends can ever are JUST FRIENDS:-/ but its still nice to think 'what if'
which brings me back to 'now you see how screwed up i am'
who really wants to love somebody like that? someone with a shattered past, someone who has never been loved....honestly, i wouldn't blame anybody for not liking me or wanting to be with me...................
anyways.. what i was trying to say before i got interrupted... i think my sister made alot of sense, but i still couldn't just forgive him like that, its gonna take alot... what 11 year old in this whooole entire world thinks about suicide?? c'mon... thats what i was thinking about when i was 11... not trying to sneak my mom's make-up, or talking about boys, or who i had a crush on.. but wanting to die:-/... thats not healthy
i kinda blame MYSELF for how i am now: not wanting to be around anybody, or getting close to anybody....but thats just how it is and im sorry im like that
gnite :-)
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its been a long time since i've used this one
i think i've had it for about four months and decided i wanted a new one
oh well
ppl can either comment in this one or the other one
im thinkin its goin to get cofusing, i guarantee that either journal will not have the same things written or said in them.. but it should be interesting
for the new people who haven't seen this
i hope you like the layout
i know i do!! :-D
gnite
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okay, so i made a new lj, incase anybody cares and if u don't then fuck you too.. so anyways.. for those of you who are important enough the new lj is "break_me_0112".. but im not putting this in my INFO thing on aim so if u get it u better remember it :-)
i dont know what to say, i think i scared the shit out of myself last nite..i don't know what happened, i think i just finally broke down and couldn't keep anything in anymore.. im soo glad keely was there.. i dk what would've happen if she wasn't.. but thanks keely for being there last nite, i hope i didn't scare you.. i know i sure as hell scared myself..
but anyways, this will be the last entry for this lj
i'll start writing in my new one soon
write more later *in other journal*
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i have a question..
**looks around** brr.. ever get the feeling somebodys watching you?! hmm
wierd?.. anyway
i have a question.. yes i said that already buuut... if anybody can answer this for me you are my new god!..jk.. but it would be much appreciated..
my question is: i know how you can like somebody for a lonnng time, and u can eventually fall in love.. and even though YOU know nothing will ever happen.. u still continue to love them and everything.. and you try sooo hard and soo many times to tell them EXACTLY how you feel.. and in the end or close to the end u finally tell them ur in love.. but they tell you that they don't think ur in love with them.. and yes it does hurt.. I MEAN IT WOULD HURT IF SOMEBODY TOLD YOU THAT... buuut after all that... URRRGH!! OKAY my question isss.. how do u stop feeling/loving somebody after all that?? if ANYBODY could answer that or tell me the formula.. i'd be the HAPPIEST PERSON EVER... U HAVE NO IDEA!!!
well thats all for now
just some thoughts or something i wanted to get off my chest
more later
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1.[What's your nickname?]: BECCA; FOX *don't ask* RE; BEC..
2. [Where do you live?]: ALABAMA, USA
3. [Describe yourself in 7 words]: LOUD; WIERD, UNCONTROLLED, SLIGHTLY AMUSED, OUTGOING, UNSURE, DIFFERENT, >.MYSELF.<
4. [Who is your worst enemy?]: MYSELF
5. [If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?] ooo i want a aie aie.. jk! thats such a cool word.. prolly a spider monkey
6. [What is the latest you've ever stayed up]: umm.. 5:30ish
DESCRIBE YOUR
7. [Wallet]: invisible?
8. [Brush]: black with a rubber grip
9. [Toothbrush]: electric and non electric
10. [Jewelry worn daily]: bracelets and eye ring
11. [Pillow cover]: umm pillow case?... blueish?
12. [Blanket]: umm.. its lakers
13. [Coffee cup]: AUBURN coffee cup
14. [Sunglasses]: do not own any
15. [Underwear]: uhh..don't have any on?? hah.. jk.. SILKISH?
16. [Shoes]: im not wearing any right now
17. [Handbag]: hahahaha. handbag????? yeah, like i'd carry a handbag
18. [Favorite top]: my evanescence ong.. its so awesome.. CAN'T TOUCH ME!! ;-)
19. [Favorite pants]: my black ones
20. [Cologne/Perfume]: wow.. uhh paradise and some new shit from bath n body works
21. [CD in stereo right now]: evanescence orr my mixed one
22. [Tattoos]: *sighs* unfortunetly not.
23. [Piercings]: eyebrow *gawd its hurts so bad*, ears, tongue.. thats all
24. [Wearing]: black evanescence shirt, black shorts, and slippers??
25. [Hair]: light brown/blondish.. straight; kinda layered.. im did it myself...go becca;-)
26. [Makeup]: i wear pretty much anything.. mostly eyeliner, foundation, glitter *for my eyes* and eye foundation something
WHAT/WHO (is/are) make up your mind~!
27. [In my head]: hmm.. some wierd song that chad made me listen to and now i can't get it out of my head
28. [Wishing]: everything was different.
29. [After this]: taking a shower
30. [Talking to]: no one.. im a loner :-D
31. [Eating]: nothing
32. [Do you like candles]: yes. very much. fire cool. hehe... PYRO!
33. [Do you have fetishes}: ooo i have tons: amy lee *no! im not obsessed nor am i a lesbian.. its a FETISH* pretty much anything black, LIPS.. and thats about it, or all that i can think of
35. [Person you wish you could be with right now]: O0O0O, WOW!.. what a question.. but umm, i think i'd like to keep that one to myself *SIGH*
36. [What/Who is next to you]: who? casper the friendly ghost. what? all kinds of shit
37. [Do you believe in love]: i have a theory on that, but right now,.. NO!
38. [Do you believe in soul mates]: yes, i believe there is someone for everyone
39. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: yes and no
40. [Do you believe in Heaven]: of course
41. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: yes, to an extend
42. [Do you believe in God]: sometimes :-/
43. [What's something that you wish people would understand]: i don't know.. it doesn't matter, ppl are gonna believe and understand what they want.
44. [What's something you wish you could understand better]: PEOPLE.. in general
45. [What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow]: i don't know.. WHO COMES UP WITH THESE QUESTIONS?!
[Song]: There are so many, but right now.. i like or am listening to TOURNIQUET by evanescence *alot lately* and PHOTOGRAPH by 12 stones
[Singer]: AMY LEE of evanescence and.. i dk?
[Group]: take a guess?!.. EVANESCENCE
[Sexiest Celebrity]: angelina jolie
[Actor]: Leonardo Dicaprio, collin ferrell, Richard gere and vin diesel
[Actress]: angelina jolie, julianne moore, reese witherspoon and bette middler
[Film]: William shakespeare's ROMEO AND JULIET and QUEEN OF THE DAMNED
[Book]: WHO IN THE HELL READS?! ..
[Author]: john updike
[Poet]: EDGAR ALLEN POE!
[Artist]: michelangelo, van gonh, raphael, matisse, valunie!!
[Fashion Model]: wha the f...??
[Fashion Photographer]: see answer above for details
[Fashion Ad Campaign]: YO MAMA
[Brand]: anything black
[Food]: MEXICAN.. AND mashed potatoes :-D
[Side dish]: side dish? f that!
[Salad dressing]: RANCH
[Sandwich]: turkey?
[Condiments on sandwich]: mustard and a lil mayonnaise
[Bread]: wheat
[Breakfast Food]: im not a breakfast person, although IF i get hungry around that time i LOVE ME SOME GRITS AND >>.WAFFLES.<<
[Vegetable]: mashed potatoes, boiled cabbage, green beans..
[Fruit]: apples, bananas, coconut, pinapples,.. all fruits
[Ice cream]: chocolate chip cookie dough
[Cookies]: OREOS ;-) and chocolate chip
[Dessert]: im not a big dessert person
[Drink]: VANILLA COKE, WATER, and occasionally milk
[Restaurant]: EL PATIO
[Color]: Black and DARK BLACK
[Number]: 5, 10, and 44
[Word]: ooo me, me.. pick me!!... i love the word FETISH!!
[Scent]: gawwd! hell if i know
[Touch]: sure... occasionally
[Feeling]: contentment
[Thing to do]: chill, computer, listen to musiq.. pretty much anything as long as THINKING isn't involved
[Hobby/Activity/Things]: see above
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i guess i decided to write somemore
this livejournal thing isn't exaclty a friend but right now its all i have to talk too.. kinda sad; i know but i did/do it to myself
but i guess the only thing i wanna get out is that im about to go insane.. LITERALLY.. some things i just can't take anymore.. im soo numb that i might as well be DEAD.. but oh well, who cares right??.. just something i want to get out and everything, if it sounds like im complaining then whatever.. like i said i don't have good friends or a best friend like most ppl do.. soo this livejournal thing is better than nothing i suppose
well i guess im gonna go
more laydur.. if im not dead :-)
*becca*
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[05 Oct 2004|07:18pm] |
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wow..
what a lonng ass day
write more later.. maaybe
*becca*
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| Why the hell do ppl INSIST on sending me these?!!!? |
[26 Sep 2004|02:14am] |
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Dolphines Cry | Live |
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A is for - Age: 19
B is for - Boyfriend/Girlfriend: suuure
C is for - Career in future: something with medicine
D is for - Dad's name: DEAD?!
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: YOURSELF??
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: umm.. the same one that i've been listening to for a few months *broken* by seether ft. AMY LEE
G is for - Guy/Girls you've kissed: suure?
H is for - Hometown: im gonna guess and say boca fl.
I is for - Instruments you play: DRUMS, GUITAR, PIANO..
J is for - Job: PAPER RUNNER ;-)
K is for - Kids: i have 24 1/2 and there names are allll KUHLOOF!
L is for - Living arrangement: mom
M is for - Mom's name: Martha
N is for - Number of brothers/sisters you have: 4
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: twice
P is for - Phobia[s]: THUNDER... *yeah, i know!*
Q is for - Quote you like: a quote that i like or one that i say alot?! *i don't care* <<< i say alot >>one that i like: "i wish the pain on the inside could justify the pain on the outside" or something like that
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: HAHAHAHA! about 3months!!! i get bored with relationships EASILY!! :-/:-P
S is for - Sexy guys @ your school/campus: a few ;-), but all guys are the same
T is for - Time you woke up: 11:00
U is for - Unique trait(s): thinking outside of the box
V is for - Vegetable you love: :-o MASHED POTATOES!!! MM MM MMM! :-D
W is for - Worst habit: ooo hard one!, HOLDING GRUDGES!
X is for - X-rays you've had: a few
Y is for - Yummy food you make: ANYTHING YOU WANT ;-)
Z is for- Zodiac Sign: CAPRICORN
DO NOT send me anymore of this bullshit!!!
HAVE A NICE DAY!! :-D
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| ...sTiLl BrEaTHiNg... |
[12 Sep 2004|10:47pm] |
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its been about 20yrs since i updated
sooo whhat the hell i guess
anyways...
nothing interesting has happened i guess.. well nothing that anybody cares or should worry about :-)
i'm kinda pissed/hurt and psychoed at the same time
not a very good combination i should think
but u can't help when ppl put u in that kind of mood
i guess you should seperate urself from those ppl who do that to you, but when u love somebody its kinda hard to let them go or just forget about them.. no matter how hurt or pissed off they make you *sigh* oh well.. fuck them, right? :-/
well not much to say
im not in a chipper mood
so im gonna bizounce
i'll update later
-becca- *aka: KETCHUP* :-P
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[10 Sep 2004|12:33am] |
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[02 Sep 2004|08:29pm] |
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Addicted | Simple Plan |
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wow! its been forever since i've wrote something in here
welll i don't know what the last thing is that i said last buuut to fill ya'll in..
i've started college, and its nothing i ever imagined.. IN A GOOD WAY!!
i meet new ppl everyday, they're awesome
and i got invited to my 2nd party already hehe! im such a mack momma! :-P
other than that i guess theres really nothing to say
i went to a dville football game and they did really well
im so proud of them, but our football players get smaller and smaller each year ;-) but they are some powerful bastards!
GO BATTLECHICKENS (warhawks)
well im gonna go
write more later
-becca-
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| >> wherever you go, whatever you do, i'll be right here waiting.. << |
[11 Aug 2004|12:49am] |
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well today was pretty good i guess
i went running.. it helps alot
and plus im gettin buff;-) yayuh!
i think im gettin better
i hope so, i don't want to be all depressed when i start school
i want to be "happy" :-)
but anways
not too much to say
until i get a car i have no STORIES TO TELL YA ;-)
well, thats a lie cuz i have stories now but they're not suitable for livejournal viewing :-P
but when i get some stories, i shall share them :-D
im sorry keely, plz don't be too mad at me.. im really stupid and i know that..
i love you soo freakin much! :-/ :-D
>. Bk n Ck --bffaea .
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| ... I think i have a glass heart ... |
[09 Aug 2004|11:38pm] |
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so help me.. | Joe Diffie |
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i had a pretty good day today
i guess..
i hung out with cody nic and diego
we went to tha mall and blah blah
blah blah blah blah and blah
riight, so then i came home and took a nap
i so hate not having a car
i miss my freedom and leaving whenever i feel like it
and seeing ppl instead of them always having to come here
ugh.. gawwd.. i fuckin hate it.. but i guess thats just tha way it freakin is
so that was pretty much my day
nothing interesting
so i guess ima go now
write more laydur
goodnight/goodmorning
> RLA
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